“You wanna be high for this”
TORN
i dont know where to start.
From the start I thought we would make it further than this. I feel like each day gets harder, i miss you, I miss that youre not mine anymore, i miss that I can no longer have you all to myself, i feel like i dont have my other half anymore,
im confused on so many levels. i thought we were good, things were workin, you went from telling me youd be there for me through everything that you’d stay by my side, youd never give up on us.. then a week later the truth came out of your mouth, that you didnt like me anymore, that you didnt like me enough to be in a relationship.. how did your feelings change so fast? how long were you faking it for? it takes more than a week to lose feelings for someone you spent so long with, for someone you said you were in love with, for someone you cared for so much, how does that all go away in a week, you must have been feeling this feeling from way before but just kept it from me.
It sucks to know you dont want me anymore, i went from talking to you every day about everything and seeing you all the time to not even saying hi, im trying not to over think alot of things but i dont understand why you lied to my face? if you wanted to see other people why didnt you just say so, instead of lying to my self telling me you didnt but you were clearly showing all the signs of doing so, i deserve the truth atleast and what did i get? the half ass truth, all i ever wanted was the best for you thats all. YOU left me at my toughest times, May 2013 has to be the hardest month for me and you left my side when i needed you to be there for me more than ever.
At times i felt like i cared so much more for you than you ever did for me, i changed all my ways for you, and in the end you dropped me as if we never existed to each other, as we were complete strangers.. all i can think about is who is going to to steal your heart next ? how gets to make you happy now, who will be that lucky person you fall head over heels for?
will she do the things i did for you? will she care for you like i did,
you continue to say you dont want anything serious but i can see it in your eyes that you do, but you see how much youve hurt me already that you cant say more because you know itll only hurt worse… but sometimes it hurts less to know the truth instead of lies to cover them up.
ive sat here every night thinking and thinking, and reminiscing about our good times and we had alot of good times, i used to love when you would saying i was your bestfriend, your wife, you lover, and that i had your heart you had mine, you promised to never hurt me and sadly you broke it</3
all i ever wanted was for you to see the good i wanted for us, but all you seem to see is the negativity that has happened and with everything that has happen i didnt deserve for you to hurt me and leave me like you did,
I hope when you find someone new that you realize what i was to you, i hope you see that all these hoodrats will be temporary that theyll only fulfill your needs to a certain extent, they wont take care of you like I did, its all just an act at the beginning, youll soon see with the kind of girls you like that they need alot of taking care of, youll be having to chase them and be kissing their ass. and when it happens i hope you think of me and think that i never made you do any of those things, that i was the most laid back gf ever, i was never on your case about anything…
thats it for now, until later.
Rest in peace hunter.<3 i truly miss you. You were an awesome dog. I loved playing with you everyday! And every night Id go outside and you’d lay right in front of me and i sit down and pet your belly and you’d fall asleep :) i miss you hunter you were the best dog ever<3 i will always love you forever. Rest in doggy Heaven<3 goodbye hunty<3 youre no long in pain.
